“I always try to move forward, because when I stop moving, I stop living, discouragement and failure are options unenviable to me,” is my newest motto for my outlook on life. When my best friend passed away nearly three years ago, I learned that the life she was living was not her own, she had been taken over by the images portrayed by our surroundings and society. With time I came to the thought that her death was an accident, that no one is to blame, that it was her time to go. I can remember as if it was yesterday us talking about our futures, how many kids we would have, where we would live, what our husband’s would be like and what we wanted to be. She had answers for everything, as did I, but we couldn’t quite figure out what we wanted to be. I used to want to be a chemist or engineer something dealing with math and science. However she wanted to be great mother or an accountant. When she passed away abruptly, leaving behind so many unanswered questions, I’ll admit I was lost and hopeless, but I have decided that I want to give back to this world and make it a better place, reduce the fatality rate, reduce the pain and agony, because I know what those emotions and things feel like. I was a freshman then, and now I’m a senior, I now know I want to allocate in the medicine field. I want to push myself to the extreme and step out of my comfort zone and attend college, because I feel I am prepared and ready. Without a higher education I cannot better myself, my future family or even the world. The medical field will always be around because somewhere someone will be ill or dying and I want to be able to be there and help them, whether it’s creating a cure or just easing their pain away. My past is not that grand, my present is motivating, but my future is what I have to look to forward to. Her death was a mishap but I’m thankful it happened because if it hadn’t then I wouldn’t be as career minded, focused or filled with so much desire to succeed in college. Life is filled with unexpected events; it’s what one does with them that impinge on the outcomes.

My Proposal

You all should tell me what yall think about my proposal, o and if you know anyone who likes to let me use them in photographs

Proposal

In the next nine weeks of this class I am attempting begin and complete a portfolio of at least 100 pages with my photography. I’m not a true photographer except at heart. Therefore the first three weeks each day I will learn something new dealing with how to work with the camera, how to make an okay photo shoot great.          

         Week 2 and week 3         The first types of photos I will be taking are known as

 sports photography. After researching it I learned that there is really no actual class 

you can take just workshops for it. Jerry Lodriguss, a sports photographer advised, “If

 you really want to learn sports photography, you really have to practice it and just get

 out there and do it, because there are no substitutes for practice and experience.” So 

basically anyone can become a sports photographer as long as I put the time into 

practice to take the shots I can be a great. After all practice makes photos perfect. There

 are eight key elements to sports photography success they are; natural talent, skill, 

knowledge, practice, desire, work, opportunity and luck. The lighting for sports 

photography can either help the shot or affect the shot. Light, in terms of its quantity, 

quality, and color, is also the most important thing that affects the technical quality of

 our sports pictures. Quantity is the amount of light illuminating our sports event plays

 a critical role in our ability to use a high shutter speed to freeze the action. Quality is

 described in the light's nature in terms of direction and softness or hardness. An 

example of hard light would be direct flash or noon sunshine where the light makes

 harsh shadows. An example of soft light would be an overcast sky on a cloudy day. Colors with our cameras are more objective and will·      record colors accurately for the most part. Late afternoon or early morning light can be a beautiful warm red-yellow color. Light from the sky in open shade on a clear day can be a very cool blue color. Indoors, different light bulb types produce different colors. Tungsten bulbs produce red-yellow light, and some fluorescents can produce green. Different color light sources can produce different colors in our images and this is why it is important to set the color balance correctly in a digital camera. 

·      Week 4 and week 5          My next project will be a compound of color meets gothic. I will attempt to incorporate the preppy person hair, dark colors for the make-up on females, and then a mixture of different outfits from tight-fitted color pants to baggy pants and muscle shirt. I want to use a filtering tool on ADOBE PHOTOSHOP to play with the color levels and balances. This project will benefit me by allowing me to step out of the box.

·      Week 6                      My next project will be to do shoot scenery I see while I travel. Landscape images, the view of sunsets, deserted and ancient buildings display diverse cultures that are seen throughout New Mexico and Texas. I can take photos of the outside, and inside. I want to be able to show people what they don’t see normally when they’re not looking closely enough
Week 7 and week 8                       My final project will be baby photography. I enjoy seeing babies 


smiling and laughing, especially when they have peculiar looks on their faces. It’s amazing how 

you can captivate that moment with a click of the button. I will incorporate black

 and white, sepia and half the picture whether it being the baby or the background a 

different color or tone. Basically the image will be like two tones. Things I learned I 

need to remember are when taking pictures of babies lying on their backs, stand 

directly over them and shoot straight down. I can also take a solid colored baby 

blanket and place it on the floor in a bright, sun filled room and place the baby on the blanket, and adjust it around him or her, making sure not to put·      him or her directly in the sunlight. Then I should get on my knees right over him or her, aim straight down and snap away. This technique will allow you to center the camera properly and you'll get some great close-up shots. The natural sunlight will often give you just enough light so your picture isn't too dark or too bright. Then I will capture a range of emotions. All emotions are different and look different on each baby that’s what makes them each unique.

·      On the finally week I will put together the greatest photos into a portfolio.The projects of photography relate to graphic design because the both use real life and 

     

     technology. This project will benefit me by giving me the upper hand in my 

   

     stepping stone to making taking photos as a hobby to a potential minor in college. 

  

     I will incorporate adobe suite into my work by using all the software available on the computer including; adobe  Photoshop, adobe illustrator, adobe in design just to name a few.

gosh i fell as if im trapped

in this body of mine

my body is present you can see me

but my soul is lost '

i have lost many great people in my lifetime

took me a long time to realize it

but ive finally discovered

what it means to be in misery

i feel like im always late

as if i come up short all the time

as if my best friend aint GOD

but more along the lines of the devil

i ask jesus everyday to forgive me for my sins

but i feel that i haven't been forgivin

or truely clensed

i wonder all the time why he let me live that nite

and she dint make it

why me?

i was the one who dint want to be anybody

she had plans bigger than anybodys

yet all it took was a few bullets and then she was gone

gone in an instant

in the blink of an eye

it suxs

i've gotten retaleation

yet it doesnt settle my nerves

just makes me angry at the thought of how they planned it out

so carefully down to the last detail to kill me

yet they shot at the wrong person

hell yea im still wakin

still livin and breathin

to this day

you tried to get me

yet you failed in killin me but

now im just faded

gone beyond fixation

im so broken

the world around

is craking down

the walls around me

are just getting bigger and taller

and im lost in my thoughts

caught between the bad and the good

caught between the one who makes me laugh

and the one who makes me cry

i think about it sometimes how different life

would've been had i not made some of those descions

that costed some peoples life

that costed me my innocents....